It’s been about three weeks since I’ve been to church. Traveling on Sundays and visiting family has been the major culprit in keeping me from the building, but it shouldn’t be an excuse for why I’ve been distant from God.
Life gets busy. Life is busy, and so my prayers become shorter and more rote. I occasionally have time for a long Bible study devotion, but that’s the exception not the norm. How come when I’m struggling in other areas of my life, God feels closer? Maybe it’s I who draws closer to Him.
When I quit writing my heart hurt. Only God could heal it. When I struggled daily with homeschooling, I had to run to God. I felt his loving arms around me. So now that everything is going okay, why don’t I call out to him, and desire his presence like in my time of need?
I know I shouldn’t beat myself up about this, but my lack of faith posts (and growth) make me question whether God is still working in my life. Whether I’ve just gotten too busy to sit at his feet.
I’m trying to instill good habits in my life, like God first, even if it’s a quick meditation on a scripture, but I don’t want that to be the way I live the rest of my life. Fast food faith isn’t really all that satisfying.
So how do you battle these feelings? I know I’m not the only one who has them.