Wednesday, May 14th, 2008...8:02 am
Bye Bye WIP!
I sent it off! Two weeks ago. After polishing and editing and correcting and polishing, I sent it off to the two agents who requested it! You can read all about what happened it those agent meetings at ACFW in early posts under CONFERENCES!
But it’s off and I have such a peace! At this point (just sending it off) I’m not anxious. Not. Anxious. At. All! Maybe this is God setting me up for a huge red light on my writing. And if so, at this point in time, I’m okay with it. Of course, I’ll still be writing and plotting stories in my head. But my drive to be published isn’t there. All in God’s time! And I have such a peace about it.
I’ve realized that during my pursuit to publication over these last four years, I’ve missed out so much with my children. Being a divided mom has made me a not-so-good mom, oftening choosing the computer instead of spending time PLAYING with my children. I’m hoping to change that this summer…and get my house in order…physically, emotionally, and spiritually!
So is this the beginning or the slowing down of my writing career. Only God knows. How I wish I was one of those mom who can really do it all! But I’m beginning to see, I can’t. At least not know, and I’m okay with that. If I get an agent, if I get a contract, I will learn to juggle it all. But I only want it if God thinks it’s best for my family. Your will be done, Lord.
I don’t say that lightly. Infact, I say that with tears in my eyes beause I know He could be closing the door on this season of publication pursuing! And I’m okay with that! At least, I’m okay with that right now!
2 Comments
May 16th, 2008 at 1:21 pm
Please let me know what happens. Is this before you heard from your agent?! Cindi
May 17th, 2008 at 10:09 am
Gina, I think you’ve finally arrived at a good place in your thoughts. It’s taken me a while, but I’ve finally learned that when we’re driven to accomplish something, we have to come to the place where we can honestly tell God that it’s all right if that doesn’t happen.
And I don’t think there’s any mom who can do it all; something vital is left untended when we try. I loved my job in the worship ministry so much that I wasn’t there for my children like I should have been when they were growing up; unfortunately, I can’t do things over like I would like. So I hope this summer turns out to be exactly what you need in order to “get your house in order” like you said.
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