Practicing What I Preach
Today I’m having a chance to practice what I preach. After getting lost in cyberspace this morning before doing my devotion, I decided to take my computer in the living room and journal about the Bible study I’ve been going through. It really helps me to grasp the concepts when I blog about what I’ve been learning, but before I got to that Aluria Spyware popped up on my computer. So after unsuceessfully trying to write with it going, I decided to set it down.When I came back to it later the screen was blank. So I hit some buttons, but nothing. I unplugged the battery and waited for it to boot up, but my log on logo was different. That’s when I started to worry a little. After clicking on the icon it tells me that my documents have been corrupted. My destop no longer existed, and I couldn’t even find the installed programs.
Okay, my first thoughts! “Is this punishment for putting off my quiet time or an attack of the enemy? (I just looked at the scriptrue in my sidebar “For I know the plans that I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11 So I am now taking comfort in that it was not sent by God!)
Trying not to panic, I called my hubby, and he figures a virus got my computer. “But I thought we had protection agains viruses,” I said. He replied, “nothing is 100% protected.”
So I turned off the computer and refused to think about it or worry. I knew my hubby backed stuff up a month ago, and I just emailed a friend my current chapter I was working on, so I wasn’t so concerned about my writing stuff. It was the other stuff. The months and hours of detailed homeschool records and the digital video I had taken over the last year, that probalby hadn’t gotten back up because the file wasn’t in my folder. If I let myself dwell on that I would have had a horrible day. Instead, I dropped my lap top off at the computer repair shop and prayed they’d recover it!
So here I sit in my hubby’s office typing away, trying not to worry. And considering I’m a major worrier, I’m doing a good job! I’m just not letting the anxiety in my gut grow out of control. I’m leaving it in God’s hands and whatever will be will be.
It won’t be the end of the world if I lose all my homeschool records. I might have to redo some of them, but I will pick up the records from the next school day. And about the video. Yes, I’ll be sad to lose that. Though I’m sure I emailed family the best ones from last Christmas. But my kids volcano project might be lost forever, or Gracie’s spontaneous antics might be lost, still there are worse things in this world to fret over and I’m chosing not to dwell ont this. (If you really knew me, you would know how HUGE chosing not to worry is in my life!)
Maybe this is one of the perils of internet use or just a test from God. I’d love to think everything will be recovered like when I found my driver’s liscence, but if it isn’t life will go on.
Still if you feel led to say a prayer in my computers behalf, I won’t refuse it! 🙂
