Sh! My One Little Secret!
I am who I say I am. A writing mom of 4 who struggles with balancing my career while raising a family.
Aside from a couple of name changes on this blog, ever word of it is true, straight from my heart and often times brutally honest. I’ve never been one to hide my feelings…when I write.
I may seem like an organized, extrovert, out in cyberspace, but the internet can be deceiving. I’m an introvert at heart who freaks at social events. I’d rather stay home in the safe confines of my own little world then venture out to a party or church function. And don’t even step foot into my house right now. I have several different projects going on in several rooms, none of them nearing completion. In all honesty, it looks like a bomb exploded in these rooms. Nothing like the neat and organized websites I manage!
I thought about attending some of the real life “blog gatherings” before, but I’m afraid I’d be terribly dull, like this blog at times:) I would probably not measure up to my readers expectations. Feeling insecure, I’d most likely cower in a corner or say something incredibly stupid or inappropriate to hide my nervousness. Then when everyone wrote about their fun experience meeting all the online bloggers, I’d probably be overlooked. People might even wonder if I was actually there.
But I’m learning to be okay with my place in this world. Just like my blog, I’m not overly popular. I’m not very good at small talk, and feel incredibly awkward in group settings, with one exception.
Writing Conferences.
I seem to wiggle out from under my shell at these gatherings. Though still not comfortable in group settings, I manage to forge a place for myself and at times appear outgoing. There’s something about being in my element that brings out my confidence, and I think that’s where I lose my inhibitions and begin to shine.
I know without a doubt I was born to write. Though I have no idea how it will all play out in my life, I am confident in the fact that I am a writer, whether I get that illusive book contract or not.
So maybe I was wrong. Maybe I am who you think I am.
An honest writer trying to journey through this life, and stumbling along the way, getting lifted by my wonderful real life and online friends.
Or maybe I’m an FBI informant in the witness protection program living in Ma…
Wait, I did say I had ONE little secret!
Who do YOU think I am?
This post was written in response to Darlene Schachts’ challenge and Allison Bottke’s Blog Tour. And special thanks to Art Bookbindery for donating an iPod Shuffle to the winner of this contest!.
