Call me crazy!

People think I’m crazy … seriously they do. I can’t tell them about all the book ideas I have or possible projects coming down the pipeline … otherwise they’ll start hyperventaling.

People may wonder why I write. Is it to get famous? No way. Because I enjoy living by one crazy deadline to another? Uh, no. Is it because I really enjoy asking my husband to pick up pizza on the way home … or perhaps just as a way to make sure I never get a coffee date with friends? Not even close.

I write so much–so many different things–because I am compelled by the love of Christ. In fact when I was doing my Bible Study today one verse especially resonated with me:

“For the love of Christ controls and urges and impels me …” 2 Corinthians 5:14 (Amplified)

That’s not to say I love God more and so I write more. (Not even close!!!) BUT when I get a new idea–and when an opportunity comes up to write something that will glorify God, share His love, and encourage others in their relationship with Christ–I HAVE TO say Yes. I HAVE TO follow. My whole soul burns within me until I do. I know when God is asking me to join Him … and it would be disobedient not to do so.

This is my path and mine alone. It’s a path of obedience to the messages He places on my heart. A path of desperation, because I can’t write ONE WORD without Him. It’s a path of connecting with the family of God, as God brings others alongside me to help me. (And, boy, do I need help!)

It’s also on this path on which I’ve experienced God in amazing ways, mostly become I’m expecting and anticipating Him to show up … and He does! He always does.

I was studying my Experiencing God workbook this morning when I came upon this phrase, which is talking about quiet time with God: “I keep that time alone with God, not in order to have a relationship but because I have a relationship.”

And even though writing is TOUGH, I truly feel it’s an extension of my alone time with God. I don’t write to make God happy, to get published, to drive everyone around me crazy, but rather because I have a relationship and the messages burn within me. As I just recently started telling my agent … “I have been overcome with words!” They’re words of hope, of healing … words that are an outpouring of my quiet time with God.

So if I’m crazy, I’m in good company. In fact, I totally understand Paul when he said, “For if we are beside ourselves [mad, as some say], it is for God and concerns Him; if we are in our right mind, it is for your benefit, for the love of Christ controls and urges and impels us …” 2 Corinthians 5:13-14 (Amplified).

So go ahead … call me a crazy [mad] woman. I’ll completely agree! Just please remember to pray for me, please 🙂