When I Am Weak

My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.

2 Corinthians 12:9

I don’t like to feel like a weak person. I’m sure it stems from my childhood. Growing up, I remember my dad screaming and yelling all the time. It was either that, or he wouldn’t speak to anyone for months on end. I watched my mom just sit back and take it. I told myself all those years ago that no one would ever treat me that way, and if they did, then I would just give them a piece of my mind.

Over the last year or so, I had somewhat turned my back on God. It wasn’t until a couple of months ago that I could feel that He wanted more of me than I was giving.

God lead me to blogging. I know, sounds crazy, but it is so true. I started out doing little devotionals but it quickly turned into something more. I was sharing my life….. little bits and pieces, here and there. As I look back at my posts now, I can see the pain behind some of them. I was showing every weakness I had, for the world to see. Writing things down has always helped; it just makes things more real for me. I am certain that some who read it everyday are thinking– this girl is depressed. I assure you I am not. God’s grace continues to bring me through to the other side.

Showing my weaknesses is something God needed for me to do, and it’s something He still wants me to do. I so badly want to be strong, not needing anybody for anything, but He wants me to humble myself… and being humble hurts. I will continue to cry out to God for answers, and I will plead with Him to help me.

Since all of this began, in just a few short weeks, I have seen answers to many of my prayers. I am still trusting God, trusting that He will carry me through my weakness and make me stronger for it.

I would like to challenge all of you to get more personal in your writing. Humble yourselves before the Lord…for He already knows your heart. Being humble will remind you of the close relationship you need with God, and it shows others how God is at work in your life. Then, dig into the word and watch as God reveals Himself to you as He transforms your life!

Lord, thank you for showing me that it’s okay to be weak. I am so thankful that Your power shines through all of it. I pray that I will continue to be real with who I am now, so that you can change me into who you need me to be for Your glory. Your grace, Father, is sufficient for me.