Something’s Gotta Give…

I’m almost ready to throw in the towel, call it quits, hold up the tattered white flag. I’m not sure how much longer I can do this. I’m getting flanked from every side, from the enemy, the home front and those I’m trying desperately to infiltrate and be a part of. And I’m not sure how much of this I can take.

My kids still see me as on the computer ALL THE TIME, even though I cut back my time especially at night and have been waking up early to write before the kids are up. My WIP that’s out there doesn’t seem to “fit,” I’m trudging through edits on a WIP I’m sick of, and I won’t be going to ACFW conference this year, the one thing (besides my agent) that help keeps me motivated and rejuvenated for another battle.

I’m working my tail of as the president of the local ACFW chapter and starting up a new Writer…Interrupted website to encourage other writers and it feels like it’s all for naught. Where is the fruit? Is the fruit growing inside of me? Maybe, but I sure don’t feel sweet and my family doesn’t think so either.

So what I’m saying here is that I need a breakthrough, somehow, not sure what it is, but I feel I’m losing this battle and just might have to turn off this computer for a while, though I’m not sure if I can turn off the story in my brain. Honestly, I don’t want to, but something has to give!