Not Part of the Plan
I thought I had surrendered so many of my dreams to God’s will. Now I’m wrestling with the “next” step… doing his will and living wholeheartedly for Him and trusting him with mine and my mom’s unknown future!
The hard part about surrendering ALL my hopes and dreams is that some of those dreams were how I “thought” I would glorify God… writing, marriage/ministry… and when those dreams didn’t work out and I was left feeling like God abandoned me -like Job- it’s taken a lot of twists in the road to get back on the “trust and surrender” track and know that God was with me all along and he still has a future and hope for me.
The only thing I know for sure about my life purpose in glorifying God is “surrendering” my idea of what this season would look like and taking care of my mom… even though I have no idea what that will look like either!
That might be my highest calling. Everything else is blind trust that my career is heading in the right direction. But I still have no earthly clue what God has planned, and I’m not even going to try to figure it out! There is actually a lot of freedom in that!
