Have You Seen My Motivation?

I can’t seem to locate it! I used to have too much motivation and not enough time. Now I have hardly any motivation and hardly any time anyway. My life feels like it’s in a state of limbo with selling this old house and still waiting to move into the new one. My day is constantly being interrupted. When I plan a full day of homeschooling that’s when a realtor wants to show the house.

I’m enjoying homeschooling more than ever. It’s just Grace and Timmy this year and though our homeschool has gotten off to a slow start due to packing up my homeschool curriculum and books for storage, I have managed to get on track in Math, Phonics and History. Though most of Timmy’s curriculum is somewhere at the new house, he’s getting a review by going over Grace’s homeschool, but still learning in the process.

I barely have any motivation to write or blog. Maybe it’s the lack of feedback and the not knowing if I’m really making a difference. Maybe it’s the waiting to hear good news from my agent on those few editors who still have my WIP. What ever the reason, my motivation is gone, and I don’t even know if I want it back.

Have I lost my desire to write? I really don’t know. I don’t think so, but I’ve lost my “have to” write. Right now I’m content not to write and that’s scary since I really need to make some money and really want to sell a book to do it and not get a 9 to 5. But I guess to make that happen, I’ll have to start writing. I don’t have the mental energy to pursue nonfiction articles and such. So I guess sooner or later I’ll have to find my motivation and give it a test drive again.

Have you ever felt like this? What did you do to get your motivation in gear?