Getting Real
Going Home…
If home is where your heart is, then I guess I’m a nomad. Going home to NY is always like entering a time warp. Technically I’ve lived away more than I’ve lived there, but when I return I feel fifteen again. My grandma no longer lives down stairs and it’s obvious by the growing nieces…
I’m Tired…
I’m tired of sacrificing for my family. I’m tired of being under appreciated. I’m tired of being taken for granted. I’m tired of jumping every time my kids need something. I’m tired of doing what is expected of me. I’m tired of putting the needs of others before my own. I’m tired of doing the…
Being Published vs. Being a Good Writer
I’ve been thinking about being published. Not in my usual way of being anxious and overly driven, but in a way that’s made me wonder what my first published novel will be like. Will it be gripping like Mary DeMuth’s first novel, Watching the Tree Limbs, which kept me turning the page with Mara’s unique…
Family Ties
A few weeks ago I wrote an email to my dad sharing my real feelings about certain promises he’s made and never followed through with recently and over the years. The story is long, and I won’t bore you with the details, but I will say that my father left our family when I was…
School: A Muliple Choice Question?
I’m tired of always second guessing myself about homeschooling. I’m tired of my unfulfilled idealistic visions for homeschool. The first year, I planned my curriculum and thought we’d do fun projects and read, snuggled up on the couch. Then reality hit. Homeschooling two kids with a two-year-old tornado didn’t work very well. Plus how much…
Getting Real About Love
On this day of love, I feel so unlovable! I’ve felt that way the most of my life. Alone. Lonely. Unlovable. Unloved. Since I was very young, all I wanted was for someone to love me. I found that someone in Jesus at a young age, but sometimes I just needed something more tangible. Thankfully…
Anger Management for Six Year Olds?
I remember the first time Timmy threw his first fit. He was two or three and we were outside jumping in the fall leaves. I don’t remember what sparked it, probably that he didn’t want to come inside, but my little “Angel boy” morphed into a demon. Blazing hateful eyes, clenched fists, spitting ugly words…
I’m in a Slump
I’ve been in a slump lazy for a while now! I don’t know if it’s because of the approaching holiday season, the anticipation of a much needed homeschooling break, or the snow storm that knocked all of us off schedule, but I’m so unmotivated to do the simple things that need to get down every…
Ho Hum Holidays
Though I’m so very blessed and have many things to be thankful for, I still get down around the holidays. Who wants to cook a huge turkey with all the trimmings for two adults and four finicky kids! I can probably count on one hand how many times we’ve spent Thanksgiving with family over the…
Throwing in the Homeschool Towel
So I did it again! I called dear ol’hubby and begged him to send the kids to school, and I think this time I mean it. I’ve battled horrible attitudes for two and a half years and things have only gotten a little better.What sparked this, you ask? My middle boy would not take his…